title: so what??
FRIDAYZ... argh...its a pretty long day... i dunno wut do i feel now...happy? sad? excited? angry? no feeling? huhu...  i've returned this to him..i dunwan to keepanythg dat has connection wit him..although i love this stuff so much~ ______________________________________________________________ i feel so LONELY today..huhu! ppl juz mind their own business oni..thy juz ignored me all day long..i dun gv a damn..i still got elvin..thx elvin cuz u teman me 2day..and be my one-day-listener...haha!! me and el's warm conversation... me : elll...tlg sya bha.. el : haih, jan la ko fikir2 lg sal tue.. me : mcm mana ko maw sya nda fikir? senang ka ko rasa? el : ya, sya taw susah...tp kalo ko gni pun, teda apa2 yg akn berubah..$#%#^ kan lah dia..%$^^&% org lain lah.. me : mcm mana? sya org baik bha..sya tia bleh bwat gitu.. el : sya kastaw ko, ORG BAIK SLALU RUGI! tmbh ko baik, tmbh ko rugi...jadi jht lebih baik...ko terlalu baik bha shanu.. me : ko maw sya jd jht? huhu! mcm mana? sya taw! sya benci dia lar.. el: ko rasa kalo benci, suma masalah selesai ka..ko tingok mcm %$%^&^&, jd kwn lebih bgs..jan lah benci2.. me : ellllllllllllllllll~ sya maw mati o... el : masi awal..jan mati dlu... me : (staring at my bottle) el : ui, ko jan fikir sdh..kalo ko sedih, sya ada, jan risau..drng kim suma nda peduli ko.. me : biar la drng..sya sedih, teda org taw..paduli lar!! el : bha, jom kita bwat homework~ me : nda maw la..biar sya termenung satu org... el : kita termenung sma2 lar.. i feel so lonely today~ the best medicine for my pain is my friends and im losing my medicine... _________________________________________________________________ at noon, i went to dat klas..i found sumthg..now i knw the truth! TRUTH dat can chge everythg..okay, i reli dun care oredi..im confussed...like wut razdan said, i nid to move on..yes!! juz move on.. i'll be sad for few days oni, den everythg will back to normal..i promise~ its hard, u guys shud understand..  love is pain sumtimes..._________________________________________________________________ so, i asked dad bout my guitar..guess wut, the answer is NOO! huhu..can 2day get anymore worster? =.=!! everythg went wrg today..EVERYTHG! friday is juz not my day.. dad, frens, me..all betrayed me.. this is life rite? so, i'll accept it.. i'll juz smile..as if nothing ever happens.. cuz i'm bored of crying.. the gud news for today is: - i finished my add maths homework lol! - i get to play basketball..hehe! - my mom hugged me all night.. - my hp battery low but i mls wana charge..1st time o~ haha! - i can control my anger..(its abt joanne) - ning baby online at last..oye~  i wish to dream whole day~chwz~ |
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